
Wednesday, June 01, 2005
its ard 1+ in the morning...still can't get to slp...went tru many of my frens's friendster...saw quite a few of them...been quite jealous abt it...not tat they are rich or popular...its the status they currently are in...:"in a relationship..."haish...been feeling moody from juz now...been thinking of something...in fact alot of things...v frustrating...everything juz seems to cramp inside my head...i need to get them out...sad enuff i can't do tat...been trying to act cool n act as if nth had happen...but i am wrong...i am indeed not feeling good ...not mentally tat is...y are they the lucky 1 n i am the unlucky 1...when will i really meet the 1 i really luv n the 1 hu really luves me...DOES LOOKS REALLY MATTERS!!!!???HEH...."LOOKS ARE IMPT BECAUSE U NEED TO LOOK AT THEM ALL THE TIMES..."CAN'T A HEART,A SINCERE HEART MORE IMPORTANT THAN LOOKS...?IF ONE HU CARES ABT LOOK,DO WE STILL COUNTED AS LOVE???!!!i wanted to know this...LOOKS LOOKS LOOKS...a tainted word for love...!!!been thinking of another phrase by some 1 i used to luv deeply..."I AM POOR TATS Y I BECOME MATERIALISTIC...AND TATS Y I NEED A BF TAT IS RICH..."another says:"I REALLY LUV U B4...(but she chose other guy over me)"i really dun understand this... been thinking these 3 things in my head...been wondering y ppl are like tat...my heart felt heavy...all of a sudden...how do u all define L.O.V.E??? by looks? by money? by cheating on some 1 hu luves u deeply? its all crap...HEH...my life totally sux...somehow i juz can't make it better...sometimes i juz had to believe in fate...sometimes i need to do tat to make me feel better...SHIT HELL!!!!its totally torturing...feel like screaming...shouting...
i will get these through...i will...I WILL!!!!!!!!!
will i???
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at 1:10 AM
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