
Wednesday, October 26, 2005
u wander off in this dark room of yours...
so dark that u can't see a thing...
so dark that u can't feel a thing...
soon,lonliess crawl up to u...
and u no longer can't see a thing,
and u no longer can't felt a thing...
cause all u will seeing right now,
was only yourself...
cause all u will feeling right now,
was only yourself...
u can't felt any much presence beside you and yourself...
and there came a crack of light...
an opening to the outer world...
u saw a illusion,
u saw a fantasy,
u saw a fairy tale...
but that is all what u see in your room...
u wanted to go out of this dark room,
and there u begin to crawl out...
desperately...u crawl and crawl...
ur hands are weak...u have no strength to continue,
and u just lay down there motionless...
and inches away from u are the outer world...
your head tilted...
u saw a gal(sm) walk pass...
WONDERFUL! u say...
and u shouted,but no voice came out...
a gal(sm) walk pass u again,but she do nth...
u shouted again,and theres nth but sound of the breeze...
u lie down there for a min...
tears rolling down from your eyes and coursed its way to your cheek...
u desperately need to get out of that room...
and again...u hold yourself up...
u stand still,though your legs are still wobbling...
u hold onto the door knob...u try hard to open it...
but not even the door had moved a single bit...
a passerby(j) walk pass...
she decided to helps u...she pushed...and pushed...
and the door is still left still...
u slough onto the side of the door...
she talks to u...like friends u nv met b4...
she crack jokes with u...like clown u nv met b4...
u were happy when she is around...
but u were left inside the room helplessly when she wasn't around...
you wanted to know where she was and what was she doing right now...
you wanted to know everything about her...
that day...she came by as usual...she talks to u like usual...
but she mention about how bz she was...and now,
she seldom visit u anymore...u try very hard to get to her...
wanted to hear her voice...ensuring that she is alright...
one day...she drop by,she tells u how beautiful a love can be...
she tells u how beautiful outside...
she tells u many things...
and she tells u her past relationship...
she still thinks of her past...and thats was what she was caught up wif...
u seal your mind again...u wanted to tell her..:
"i need u...i want u...i...love u..."
and times after times she tell u how sweet her past is...
and times after times u are jus totally lost of what u are doing...
and again...dilemma was surrounding u...
Went Into Seclusion//*
at 9:10 PM
a PiC oF mE
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