
Sunday, October 23, 2005
i gave up...i totally gave up on sm...i know it because i felt that i no longer longed for u...actually...i been through this dilemma...sm or j...now i know...haha...wad a flirt guy i am...haiz...i always ask this myself...who i really do like...sm or j...guess i do have an ans here...but...i dunno...argh...let me just summarise the whole thing...i met sm during my working period...well...i do have a wonderful time...felt happy and so on...and feeling grew...but...we just maintain as friend...as time goes by...i was uncertain of my feelings to her anymore...not for any other gal,but because of the time taken...guess i was not tat really like sm...and then i met j...ok...she was a sweet gal...but...i swear i nv likes her,nv until i really know her...well u could say i do know abit of her...just abit and its enuff for me to fall for her...i know this because i do long for her...haha...fancy talking abt this when i met her for only a few times? well...at first i thought it was just my crush and so i do concentrate more on sm...but time grew that feeling just stays on...its like a drink being polluted...like plain water added sugar...and i found out tat...plain water plain...because of sugar added inside..and my feeling for sm was no longer there,because j was inside...haha...COMPLICATED isn't it?i like j...i admit that...den wad abt sm u would ask...well...she was nv meant for me...not even a single moment...guess i do really must give up...and get on my life...and waited for the time to give up on j as well...she stills hold on her ex...which is a boundary tat i could not cross,which mean i can't enter into her world...and as i waited...like past few encounters,i am a waiter...again...i waited,for her...i din tell her i like her,like sm...i din tell her anything...juz merely a care and concern from a friend she would sometime receive from me...HAH...i am such a failure...
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at 11:08 PM
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