
Thursday, September 14, 2006
after so long...finally had a new post...a bad 1 i should say...went out with jeff,ricky and sharon to phuture yest night...was quite entu in the first place...but somehow my mood swing just trigger off...first i saw cindy...everything was still fine...and alright...mood swing wasn't that much...then i saw spencer...and the first thing came to my mind...elena...nothing but her...crap right...wait till u all know more crappy stuff...well i did saw her...but...jus felt upset...mood swing shot up to the climax...dance around...like a body without soul...generated by the music...i jus dance...and i don't know why am i like that...ltr on i met sharon and her friend...thought things could change....but her friend left...and well...din have the mood to dance...though they have good music on...and on top of that...i felt thirsty...so i get myself a drink...this time round...i din saw elena...or i missed her...then i hanged around...until finally its 4am...time pass...went for supper...with sharon and the rest...went home after that...think alot while i am on my home back...i think...y shld i be so upset when elena and me wasn't like before...? y shld i be upset when sharon's friend went home?? sickening...shouldn't i be real upset when "she" wasn't beside me?? i really can't understand myself...anyone do?? got home and got scolded by my mum for being so late home...and i ask myself y i wanted to stay out so late?? crap...i ask myself alot of qns...i even qn abt me being on earth...y one shld be borned when one shld finally dies? to find happiness?? happiness: someone used their liftime to search that and end up din find any...someone found it,but slip it away from their hand... its all so crappy...i really don't understand myself...i don't know why i am feeling upset for someone i know for like not even a month...i don't know y i am feeling upset for someone who i know for few hours...i dont know why shld i club in the first place also...shouldn't i be waiting for her? and plan wad to do when she finished a 'A's??
seriously...if anyone were to be in my shoes...wad shld i do?
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