
Thursday, October 26, 2006
i always believe this fairytale that says...when god created a male...they used 1 of the chest bone to created a female,so that the male won't feel lonely...this thought had been with me for quite a few years...since i heard it from my friend...and indeed,i believe it...because,when the 1 u love is not beside you,u somehow felt that pain in your chest...and when she's really gone,that pain grew imensely. i do felt that right now...what reason do 1 really need to like or love someone...i dun seem to get the idea of loving someone because of that something...doesn't you love someone as a whole, doesn't u love someone because he or she is that someone and not others? some ppl understands me,most don't...and i can only blame myself,for not letting her understand me more...on how i really felt towards her...i will not do something not because of someone,its because i wanted to...i just want ppl to understand,being a single and being attached is 2 DIFFERENT matters....i don't handle stuff when i am attached like i used to handle when i am single...maybe because of ppl doesn't really understands me,maybe i shld made known to everyone that,even though i play,even though i am not those kind of "good guy",i still can be a good bf...i am comfortable when i am with you,just that i don't know how to express myself clearly to you that i am comfortable...and at the same time i am overly shy and had super low self esteem...but i jus feel nice when i'm with you...maybe u can't felt that...i don't know...all i know is...my feeling is undoubtedly true for u...but...i guess,if i stand at your point of view...i'm really not a good choice to consider...what i surface is not what i really is...i just need more time to get over it...
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at 2:02 AM
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