
Wednesday, September 28, 2005
another boring day had pass...and now its already 4+ in the morning and i am still awake...LOL...was chatting wif my best buddies...hmmm...haha...always doing that...=X...well...guess what xiang say is true la...cannot really force onto something that can't happen...haiz...i can't do much...i can only...wait...its all i was suppose to be doing all along...LOL...i am a "waiter" in my life...u see a gal wait for me like i do...LOL...well if anyone saw that i think there's really a big miracle already...HAH...i am stuck to this so called fate thing and here i am complaining and procrastinating about life and fate...i know how to use beautiful words to console my friend abt love and relationship...but i do not know how to use that same kind of words to console me...haiz...maybe human are like that...maybe they love giving ppl advice when they themself doesn't fit in the things they said...well in that case its so hypocrite...everything we say its just the opposite of what we do...am i a hypocrite too? i tell ppl to get over a lousy relationship or someone that dun love them and here i am yearning for love and care from the 1 i love...i tell ppl that "well let time do the healing...." but here i am still waiting some impossible payback...haiz...i am always sighning...but i am not in real...its 2 different me...i love laughter and fun...but i am a saddist...LOL...quite contradicting isn't it?? well...me myself also do not know...sometime life just need to be this way...maybe its what ppl call "thats life"...lonely guy i am...lonely world i'm in...lonely path should i take?? haiz...
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